Stories I may never write...

It all started as a challenge to the Suffolk Writers Facebook Group to write a list from A to Z of possible book titles, 3 words of less.

As I love a good bit of writerly procrastination, here's my own full list, I haven't stuck to the 3 word rule but I have made it all rhyme and created a nonsense poem - please borrow any that take your fancy but please share if you do!

(however Kitty McClaw is already taken - something I wrote years ago, click here to read)

Acapella Tales

Beluga and the Whale 

Candle-shine at Night

Delia Makes it Right

Elephants love Shade

Forbidden Lemonade

Grandma's Hidden Gems

Henry's Mislaid Pens

Imagination Overload

Jumping Jackson Toad

Kitty McClaw's Grand  Day Out

Luna Roundabout

Madness of the First Degree

Naturally Bee

Open After Hours

Possibility of Showers

Queenie for a Day

Royalty Comes to Stay

Sunny Disposition

Tremendous Superstition

Under My Umbrella

Vicky Meets a Fella

Which Vest is Best

X-Ray of the Chest

Yellow Flowers on my Grave

Zig the Slug is Very Brave

The A - D of Planning

 A is for A Team - Hannibal Smith loved it when a plan came together.

B is for Baldrick, with the aid of Black Adder he hatched many a cunning plan.

Plan C – was the name of a cat in the Australian soap opera Sons and Daughters.

 

Like Hannibal I love a good plan that runs to clockwork, unfortunately successful plans are a scarce commodity in the modern age.

I used to be good at making plans, or at least I believed I was, I derived pure joy from putting my schemes into practice, a few even worked out to some degree! Maybe it was all just day dreaming but it was so much fun.

After Andrew died a friend suggested I abandon my meticulous ideas of what the future would look like and go with the flow instead.

It didn’t come naturally but after many years of dented expectations it became easier to let go.

After having cancer, I threw everything in the air. Brexit, Covid and everything that has followed since has blown away any hope I had of having the life I once wished for.

Welcome to the world of no plans.

It’s quite frankly depressing, I need something to look forward to and even the tentative schemes are held so lightly now, I almost plan for them to come crashing down. I give a hollow laugh “I told you so!”

November wobbles have arrived too early this year, the news for the future is bleak, no one has a plan anymore.

It feels as if we are going “through a rice pudding in a mini-sub”, one of Andrew’s expressions that seems rather apt just now, especially as I hate rice pudding, the milky smell of it, the lumpy texture -yuk!

But I don’t want to leave my thoughts here, I need a way out, to find some hope to keep me going through what will inevitably be a long, cold winter.

I’ve planted tulips and onions this week, is that enough to hope for? Can I hold on ‘til Spring?

For more immediate sparkle Strictly is on TV tonight. Perhaps I need to get swept up in a Strictly daydream, the one where I am a “celebrity” and get asked to appear.

Not really a plan but a great distraction, which reminds me I started writing this poem the other day, scuttles over to Facebook to find it for you....

Perhaps plan D should be DANCE? 

Just forget the news, the dashed dreams, all the worries and cares, instead move my feet, shake my hips, wriggle into that comfortable spot in the sofa and watch the magic happen!

 

 

            My hair and make-up completed,

       I open the dressing room door,

       Here is my partner, so handsome!

       We’re ready to take to the floor.

 

       My Argentine Tango would dazzle,

       My waltz would be sure to delight,

       My Charleston would be cheeky,

       My foxtrot the best of the night.

 

       I'd throw myself in at the deep end.

       Be a generous, friendly celeb.

       But my fame is only imagined

       So, I'll just have to watch it instead! 

Too Many Broken Hearts

 In 1989 when Stock, Aiken and Waterman ruled the radio airwaves, Jason Donovan sang about broken hearts to an up-beat, bouncy disco tune. In the video he sat strumming his guitar, with no anguish in his demeanor just a dazzling smile somewhat at odds with the title of the song.

It contains the line…

I’ll be hurt, I’ll be hurt if you walk away!

Thinking about the lyrics and the tune now it’s all so feeble. It could be describing kids squabbling in a playground kind of “hurt” - you pushed me - you started it. A small graze on the knee kind of hurt which will scab over only leaving the faintest of scars if you pick at it too much.

At the time I loved the song, after all Jason, Kylie and I were in born in the same year, so we must be kindred spirits – ’68 was such a good vintage.

Over thirty years later (which doesn’t seem possible) I know the real pain of a broken heart, it’s beyond a little bit of hurt, but Mr Donovan is right about one thing, there are far too many of them in the world.

I guess it’s inevitable as you get older that more people join that special club, the one I’ve been a part of for years, exclusively for widows, widowers and those who have lost the love of their lives. As time rolls on, I find more and more friends and acquaintances cross over to my camp.  Once I was the pioneer, the only one here negotiating this strange new territory.

Maybe that’s too fanciful an image but when I started my first blog, just after Andrew died, friends read my words and were helped as I poured out the contents of my broken heart into the ether.

I’ve always wanted to turn my words into a book, hoping the wisdom I have gathered can help others. My legacy, some recompense for my own suffering, making it all strangely worthwhile.

To this end I put my money where my mouth is and coughed up for a Curtis Brown Creative short, online, writing course in the summer, led by memoirist Cathy Rentzenbrink. She is an excellent teacher, even if on the short course you only get to watch her video tutorials rather than meet her in person.

I turned in my shorter assignments each week and got some great peer feedback from others on the course. Encouragement to carry on, I have a story to tell.

But writing a memoir is so different from writing a blog. It needs more of a narrative, a story telling quality. The facts I consider most important and want to explain in great detail need cutting as I show the scenes of my life through a cinematic lens. I need drama, light and shade, panning shots and zooming in. Show not tell.

I have never appreciated all this before. At the beginning I just thought I could stitch together blog posts with a few extra comments in between as glue, it was just a matter of rearranging and sorting. This process has taken me ten years already, stopping and starting, and maybe it will take another ten to complete it, which is a daunting prospect.

Meanwhile the list of the broken hearted grows and I welcome others to this barren land of bereavement.

Nothing I write can ever heal a deepest hurt but I remain convinced I need to keep going. Hoping and praying my words find the right ear and bring some soothing balm in difficult days, a quiet voice whispering, "I know your heart aches and you are not alone."

Don't Leave Me This Way

 I recently started a short online memoir writing course and last week I was so productive I actually wrote two pieces for the our weekly task. As we were writing about memorable music I had so much scope.

Here is the second one I wrote but never submitted ...

    As Jimmy Somerville sang the long ahhhhhhh in anticipation of the next line I twirled as best I could on the sticky nightclub floor with my friends all around me. It was an elaborate display but years of dance classes starting at an early age had taught me how to spot and spin without getting dizzy, although I confess a little dizziness mixed with the sensations of a Malibu and coke or two was not an unpleasant sensation.

It was student night at the Hungry Years, the only nightclub we really frequented. It was situated near Brighton pier and is now, perhaps unsurprisingly for its location, a gay club. I wonder if it’s glitzier and more vibrant? Along the wall, as we went up the stairs, it used to portray pictures of men queuing for food in the depression.

“Don’t Leave me This Way” was guaranteed to get me up on the floor, although to be honest we pretty much danced the whole night.

Year later I sat with a green ring binder on my knee. As I had studied librarianship, I was impressed with Andrew’s catalogue of all his vinyl.  I guess it was an early version of a spreadsheet, what used to be called a database – are they even the same?

Anyway you could search for records by either artist or title.

In his spare time Andrew was a DJ, lugging big wooden flight-cases and all his gear around in a white transit van with a blue stripe. (I have such great memories of time spent in that van and maybe I’ll share them another day or just hold them closer for a comforting hug.)

Suddenly I found the one I wanted to play, I checked the number, found the correct case and flicked through the records, all housed in sturdy brown or white carboard sleeves rather than the usual coloured, flimsy paper wrappers.

777 - Don’t Leave me This Way by the Communards.

I can't survive I can't stay alive, without your love oh baby
Don't leave me this way…
No I can't exist ...
I'll surely miss your tender kiss
Don't leave me this way….

But you did leave, you died, I stayed alive and here I am all these years later and I still somehow exist without your kiss.

The song I danced to all those years ago became woven into our memories together, Andrew knew it was one of my favourites and it became one of those titles we joked about being a good funeral song.

Actually we didn’t play it at the funeral, there were songs far more appropriate for the occasion, but I hang on to the vinyl copy. I have it in my hand now, perhaps it's time for another turn, swirling together thoughts from long ago, before you, my years with you and the present, more than just surviving because after all this time I still recall the art of how to spin without becoming dizzy.

Inspiration Finally Found

We were all a bit skittish at Wednesday's writing group zoom meeting, although there was much discussion there was little writing.

Had we lost our mojo? Or had the prompt of thinking about a memory turned us into chattering teenagers, as at least two of us pondered our school days? Crisp new uniforms and shiny shoes.

I've continued pondering...

I thought about gingham school dresses and how I still wore one at secondary school. It was on the official uniform list and my mum made me a new one in a more grown up style, but I was the only one in summery blue and white checks.

Perhaps I didn't want to grow up as fast as everyone else.

There was also some talk about PANTOUM poetry, which I had never heard of before so I googled it. This was the best illustration of how to write one.

I've decided I quite like poetic form, I like the challenge of fitting words into a defined rhythm, which is very odd because I usually hate filling in forms and I'm actually a writing outside of the box kind of girl! As ever I am complex and contrary.

Which leads us full circle to gingham dresses being slightly out of place in those early days at "big" school. Navigating puberty and all the changes that occur between being a child and growing up to be an adult. 

Eventually inspiration struck and I came up with this...

First Love

    

Clinging on to childhood

In my gingham school dress

Sunny summer days so good

No boys I want to impress

 

In my gingham school dress

Carefree days of daisy chains

No boys I want to impress

Skipping down country lanes

 

Carefree days of daisy chains

Love me - love me not

Skipping down country lanes

Childhood all forgot

 

Love me - love me not

Catch his eye, heart beats fast

Childhood all forgot

Holiday romance doesn’t last

 

Catch his eye, heart beats fast

First ever pre-teen crush

Summer romance doesn’t last

Heart all turned to mush

 

First ever pre-teen crush

Sunny summer days so good

Heart all turned to mush

Clinging on to childhood 

Another google search and I've found a list of 168 poetic forms - which could keep me going for some time...

...watch this space!

Ladybird, Ladybird

I took this photo of a shy ladybird while out walking, posting it on Facebook it received the comment "avoiding paparazzi!" and that was the start of this story...

Avoiding paparazzi was difficult for Lady who was commonly spotted in her distinctive shiny red carapace. Since the incident she’d become popular for all the wrong reasons, the story sung in rhyme over and over. Her parenting skills were questioned. How did the house fire start? Where did her children go? What of poor little Ann trapped under the frying pan? Ms Bird dodged the lens documenting “wildlife”, opened her wings and flew away home.

from my first nursery rhyme book

Languishing - is it all a load of Blah?

 

I’ve learnt a new word, well maybe not exactly new but a new meaning, recycled and repurposed for the times we live in.

languishing adjective

failing to make progress or be successful.

 

Interestingly I never thought it had such negative connotations until just now when I googled the definition. I see it more as lazing by a deep blue pool sparkling in the sunlight or a woollen jumper languishing at the bottom of the washing basket waiting for a careful handwash. There’s some kind of luxury to the word as it richly flows off the tongue.

Let’s keep hold of the positive, glass half full strands as we dive into something a little murkier….

the seemingly never-ending pandemic!

I came across the word “languishing” by chance scrolling through Facebook, as I stumble across most things these days. It was an article published in the New York Times

There’s a Name for the Blah You’re Feeling: It’s Called Languishing

https://www.nytimes.com/2021/04/19/well/mind/covid-mental-health-languishing.html

Well I can certainly relate to the “blah” feeling so I clicked and read further and you can read it too by clicking on the above link, but here are my own thoughts with some pretty pictures…

Languishing is described as the middle child of mental health somewhere in the no man’s land between depression and thriving.

It seems to be where a lot of us are at just now, we survived 2020 and had high hopes for 2021, after all the roadmap appears to be on course and life is getting back to some sense of “normality”.

But I know from talking to people that there just isn’t as much sparkle in the world at the moment, particularly for those of us who are extroverts by nature, who usually thrive on company and interaction with others. We’ve retreated so far into our comfortable shells that even the idea of poking our heads out is agonisingly daunting.

Let’s just lie on the sofa and binge watch some more Netflix until all of this goes away and if it doesn’t let’s just binge watch some more – languishing in the cosiness of the familiar.

And that’s OK, we’re not really depressed.

I have some experience of depression; I’m still taking a tiny tablet each day to keep me balanced and Andrew had bad depression that cast a long black shadow over family life for many years. This is certainly different.

But we are stuck, and I keep saying “we” because I know this applies to others. We are just not thriving as we might do in better times.

The garden this year offers an interesting illustration.

 Compare last year's vibrant blooms...

...with this year's tight buds and reluctantly unfurling lily

photos taken exactly a year apart of the same plants.

Last year we had a very sunny spring, both warmer and wetter, much more conducive for plants flourishing in the garden.

And we desperately needed the sunshine last year as we began to grapple with the very first lockdown and the idea of staying at home to save lives. We were, maybe not filled with enthusiasm but at least we seemed to have more purpose and resolve to achieve things.

Sadly, the pandemic is no longer a novelty, in the sense of being new rather than a frivolous bauble (oh how rich our language is?). We are a bit bored now and even if we know there is light at the end of the tunnel with vaccinations and tumbling figures over here, we can see the virus still raging out of control in other parts of the world. It will impact all our lives for a very long time, maybe forever.

So how do we flourish again?

Maybe we need to go back in the garden, the daffodils are shrivelled and well past their best, some tulips sadly droop, other plants have died in this dry weather.

However, there is resilience, buds are appearing with new growth, good things are around the corner. And some plants that haven’t blossomed this year may get another chance, there’s always next spring.

One thing I know for sure from experiencing early widowhood, being a single parent and surviving cancer is that you can bounce back.

It would be flippant to say you ALWAYS do, maybe you don’t bounce so high, hard knock chip off some sparkle and you have battle-scars.

But just like that real wool jumper languishing at the bottom of the wash basket, with some tender care and attention you can be revived.

For any wife who's lost her husband...

 A wife lost her husband

Others lost their dad

Children lost a grandfather

They are all very sad

 

Each struggle with their mourning

What’s the right thing they should do?

There’s protocol to follow

Covid restrictions too

 

With fortitude and grace

And a firm “stiff upper lip”

Masks affixed in place

Only a silent tear let slip

 

But underneath the surface?

What emotions are unbidden?

Does private grief bubble up?

Past secrets stay hidden?

 

Who can tell how you would feel,

in this painful situation?

Grief is deeply personal

Not “news” broadcast to the nation

 

Everyone mourns differently

Some with tears, but then there’s laughter

Memories tumble quickly

No new ones from here after

 

A wife lost her husband

Others lost their dad

Children lost a grandfather

They are all very sad

 

Having lost a husband, a dad, a grandfather, an uncle, a friend I may have some inkling to how the royal family feels at this time. But no one really knows and few of us would ever have to face the public scrutiny they are subjected to.

But this poem isn’t just about their loss but it's written for any wife, child or grandchild at this time whose grief seems overshadowed by world events. 

We all try to do the “right” thing when actually there are no definitive answers in grief, laugh or cry, shout and scream, whatever helps you though each day.

You are not alone – God Bless!

A time to dance and a time to put your feet up!

This story has been inspired by proper face to face conversations this week about the ending of lockdown and some writing I started at our latest writing group zoom meeting.

Tamsin had spent the latest lockdown learning a new unusual word every day. She had been determined not to waste any more time after spending lockdowns 6 and 7 moping over Craig, the love of her life, who had left her in the middle of lockdown 5 for his Pilates teacher, Daniel “The Downward Dog”. I am certain she would have been happier if the blonde-haired god was actually a goddess called Danielle.

Anyway, here we were enjoying our first night out for ages and she was explaining her word of the day for uncontrollable dancing.

“Tarantism!”

“Dancing like a spider on roller skates?” I retorted; I like to think I was the comical friend but all too frequently am left laughing loudest at my own jokes.

“Don’t be so daft – that’s tarantula.” Tamsin said with a straight face. I really need to find friends who think I’m funny.

Perhaps it’s just been too long since we’ve been in each other’s space, face to face without a screen. Had we lost the art of reading facial expressions? Had we spent too long focusing on our own faces staring back at us, checking our extra-long hair wasn’t too much out of place, worrying about the spot erupting on our forehead and not really paying attention to the people we were talking to.

The club was loud and the air stifling, a breeding ground for bacteria but since we’d all had the cocktail of prescribed inoculations, and were entitled to two free shots at the bar each we should survive this latest round of social interaction.

I managed to keep moving my feet to the rhythm but looking at us all there was very little of the uncontrolled “tarantism” going on, each of us appeared to sway in unison, our dancing resembling Zumba moves we’d learned online, ingrained muscle memory movement, single, single, double, grapevine.

Was it six of seven years now that we had spent living in and out of lockdown? A night out like this was such a novelty I was determined to enjoy it but I was also exhausted, looking round I wasn’t the only one. Age was not on our side anymore, the eighties soundtrack was still appealing, by far the best decade for music in living memory. We were the lucky ones who could remember the nightclubs of our youth but a night in with Netflix and a mug of cocoa was rather appealing.

The seventeenth series of Bridgeton started tomorrow; would I have enough energy to binge watch it? People complained the scripts were flimsier than the sets but it was still compelling viewing, even if due to social distancing laws the main characters were now played by holograms, at least the A.I. robots of season 14 were a dim memory – a dream sequence thought up by the evil genius Duke Binary that was best forgotten. We had all got quite good at wiping out the low spots, a useful survival technique.

Tamsin tugged at my arm, the shock of physical touch made me recoil and she looked apologetic, “I think I’ve just spotted Craig, can we go?”

Over the noise I nodded my consent and gave her a warm smile hoping to communicate compassion rather that pure joy at finding an escape route. With quarantine and other restrictions, it would be months before we were allowed back, the one night out every ninety days rule once seemed draconian but eighty-nine nights of bliss lay ahead of me.

 

   

the day between

Easter Saturday is a funny old day, it sits somewhere between the grief of Good Friday and the joy of an Easter resurrection. 

For those of us who love to read it the loss felt when you finish a great novel that has moved you before you pick up another to immerse yourself in.

For those who have lost a loved one it's the chasm between death and the funeral, which brings some kind of closure, although actually it just releases you some new unexplored territory.

Life is always changing with beginnings and endings all around us but it's being stuck somewhere in the middle that is often the most testing place to be.

Waiting is always the worst, waiting for a train to arrive on a cold station platform, waiting for a letter to bring anticipated test results, waiting for spring flowers to bloom again.

There's a hopefulness in what's to come and yet it is in the darkness of waiting that everything is happening behind the scenes beyond our gaze. We often can't change the outcome, it's out of our hands and in God's.

Ask for more patience and God will give you some thing to wait for or a reason to take life that bit slower.

So here we are once again waiting in the day between and life is going on around us as so many people can't sit still, don't want to face the challenges of pausing because it is hard to rest and leave things at the foot of the cross.

it’s Saturday -

Hooray!

A day to run,

have fun.

A rest,

the best.

Not time to stop,

shop ‘til you drop.

Kick a ball

“The ref’s a fool!”

Or language, that’s more colourful!

It’s party time

pour some more wine

“oh, just one more…”

Before

you go

 

How can people carry on

while my heart breaks?

 

Another crack appears

with each laugh I hear

and tears

gush like rivers

ever flowing

never slowing.

All my dreams

it seems

lie crushed

beneath a stone.

Now I’m alone

I pause

I wait

too late?

A curtain rent

a life all spent

poured out

no doubt

Found on Facebook

left

bereft

lost

at such a cost.

Heavy nails

surely don’t fail…

 

Census Done

Today is both World Poetry Day and Census Day.

I hate ticking boxes, I'd rather write an essay telling you who I am*, and why I've not had paid employment for a long time, but there is no option for that! 

(*I am a princess, a brain and a basket case - to misquote The Breakfast Club, the other two don't apply)

I've written it all before on my blog. And I've shared much of my personal history on Facebook should you need it, for your algorithms and such like. 

So instead I've written a poem on my ponderings... at least on a particular box, the one particular definition that sometimes/often/rarely makes me the person I am today... maybe!

There is so much the census doesn't tell you and it reminds you of things in black and white that are really shades of grey.

But at least it is done for another ten years...

Census done.

2 without you now.

Each snapshot a decade apart

Single three times

(just a child)

married once

(and a mother too!)

widowed twice, at least on paper.

Yet only 53!

That doesn't sound so old.

Or maybe it does

to millennials

who see me as someone

old enough to be their mum.

Not a grandma though.

Will I ever have that title

to add to my collection?

What will the records show?

What boxes will I tick

in the next decade?

Will I remain

widowed,

one - 

census done!

Help! I think I’m turning into an introvert!

 I am most definitely a people person. I love meeting new people and I’m usually full of questions wanting to know their stories, what makes them tick. My brain likes to make connections and I am genuinely interested.

I guess that makes me an extrovert!

I thrive on social interaction.

But the longer lockdown goes on the happier I feel being cocooned in my own little world on my own with a good book – I think I’ve already read 8 this year and it is only the beginning of March; I usually only manage a couple a month.

Am I becoming an introvert?

Or is there more going on?

I still love meeting people, talking to people, in fact I’ve joined a local book swapping group on Facebook and am currently messaging someone I don’t know in person arranging collection of a book I’m giving away. Unfortunately, she lives in the next village and it’s just a little too far to walk to for a drop off.

And that’s the issue I suppose, I’m having to make excuses to go out anywhere. It’s been drummed into us that we need to stay at home, save the NHS, not make unnecessary journeys.

During the enforced confinement I’ve decided I quite like my cosy little home; I don’t really need to leave so I’m retreating from the world only venturing out into cyber space for the odd zoom meeting. Does that satisfy my need for human interaction? Most days the answer is a resounding yes!

And it’s cold and dull outside so why bother?

Of course, I do go out, Friday’s market is a highlight of my week because I get to talk to so many people. I regularly chat to all the stall holders and try to buy from as many as I can.

Our church is open and although we don’t congregate for coffee as we used to do after a service, plenty of us gather near the door on leaving, often still with masks on, chatting for a bit, longer when the sun shines.

That will make a big difference, warmer weather and less restrictions will be a marvellous combination.

There is light at the end of the tunnel, infection rates are declining and more of my friends are getting vaccinated every week. Soon we will be able to emerge like butterflies.

I’m certain I won’t have forgotten my people skills but breaking out will still be tentative.

Some people are incredibly anxious about going out into the big wide world again and although I worry that I might be turning into an introvert just writing these thoughts down have made me realise I will inevitably blossom again in the milder weather.

Youngest son recently went back to uni so my life is obviously different with only me to consider. This is a time to be selfish, do what I want and if that is stay in, snuggle under a blanket and read a book or 2 or 3 or 4 so be it!

Life is full of ups and downs and there have been several valleys for me, particularly in the last three years. This will pass, I’ve been through much worse.

But I do pray for those who are really struggling and are fearful of what happens next. Hopefully thinking through my own muddled thoughts will help me develop more empathy and compassion.

Whether you are an introvert, extrovert or somewhere in between I think we are all going to need plenty of kindness in the coming months.

A Trio of Triolet

 

Broken Down

You like to have an object you can mend

Screwdriver, hammer and a few choice words

Your refusal to talk drive me round the bend

You like to have an object you can mend

 

What I say you cannot comprehend

I feel as though my voice is barely heard

You like to have an object you can mend

Screwdriver, hammer and a few choice words

 

Mirror Wishes

We bought a mirror with a gilt-edged frame

How I wish I could climb inside

Reflections are identical – I almost look the same

We bought a mirror with a gilt-edged frame

 

To step into another world would be quite a game

Out here I’m found, in there I’d hide

We bought a mirror with a gilt-edged frame

How I wish I could climb inside

 

Fudge

A box of birthday fudge

Melts on my tongue – sugar sweet!

These extra pounds just won’t budge

A box of birthday fudge

 

Size me up – who are you to judge?

Well packaged with a bow so neat

A box of birthday fudge

Melts on my tongue – sugar sweet!

 

A Rondel of Unrequited Fluff

 

The first Wednesday of each month is always the most creative as I click the zoom link for my writing group meeting.

It is such a joy to be able to join my writerly friends in these strange times.

Last night was no exception as we learnt all about Rondel poems, starting with one by Chaucer, Rondel of Merciless Beauty, read here by the mesmerising Jude Law…

 

We were encouraged to stick to Chaucer’s rhymes to make things easier, so of course I broke those rules immediately and didn’t! 

And we were told our love poem could be about anything, a beloved pet, a landscape or even smelly feet, “it’s just a bit of fluff” said PoetWoman who was leading the evening.

Well the word fluff stuck and I couldn’t get enough of the stuff, resulting in this little ditty….

I do hope it brightens your day 😊

 

A Rondel of Unrequited Fluff

 

You stretch and yawn and catch me unawares

There’s your belly button full of fluff

I reach my finger, but not far enough

 

I am bereft, can only stop and stare

My heart’s like jelly, made from wobbly stuff

You stretch and yawn and catch me unawares

There’s your belly button full of fluff

 

Upon my word you tempt me to despair

My life from this moment on will be tough

I dry my tears upon my silken cuff

You yawn and stretch and catch me unawares

There’s your belly button full of fluff

I reach my finger, but not far enough

An Epiphany – or something

 

I want to write something profound

WORDS to share around

For you to wonder at my wisdom

Ponder at my imparting

New Years bring new hopes, new dreams

And yet it seems

We are still mired in the old

Can’t shake off the cold

It’s crept into our very bones

We shut the doors and hibernate at home

 

I want to write something hopeful

WORDS to cling to

Find a new tune to sing to

But January is dark navy blue

The colour of school uniforms, night and deep space

Going on forever

Growing blacker

Drifting further

 

I need to write something cheery

WORDS to impress

Like a new designer dress

As simply stunning as a snowdrop

Perhaps overlooked

Often under-trodden

A light bright gift of hope – an epiphany

If you know where to look.